I have got some work to do...

If you’re new to this corner of the internet… Hi!!! I’m Laura and I’ve been to therapy 3 possibly 4 times, it all really merges after a while.

(Apologies for the abrupt start there but I feel there is no way to effortlessly drop that into conversation… LOL.)

I’ve been for a variety of reasons but around the second time I went due to unhealthy eating habits (possibly orthorexia but, again, it’s not finite) as well as over-exercising.

And whilst I think I have come a long way when it comes to recognizing Diet Culture and it’s control, I now know I still have a long way to go.

We took a gorgeous staycation last week and did a bunch of things in LA that we had yet to do… Catalina Island, paddle boarding, horseback riding in Griffith Park and basically just enjoying the city we now call home.

Wrapped up in that was a more fluid and organic (Lawd I hate when people use that term!) schedule… no alarm clocks, no planning ahead and, as much as I hate to admit it, was a struggle for me.

I live for a plan; I love to know what is coming next but I was unaware of how much I relied on planning to fuel a deep rooted reliance on Diet Culture.

It was a struggle for me not to know when I was next going to exercise, it was a struggle for me not to know where we were going for dinner… I STRUGGLED.

So, as much as I don’t want to admit it, I have some work to do.

I have to work on feeling validated when I haven't exercised, knowing that it’s ok to not check out the menu before heading out to eat as well as recognise that I still have some work to do when it comes to Diet Culture and learning to release those reins…

TBC if I decide to head back to therapy but, in the meantime, I’m working my way through

Intuitive Eating by Evelyn Tribole & Elyse Resch and I could not recommend it more...

Thanks for reading, ly.

L x